I am yet again sitting in front of the virtual world with some real feelings. I would say sometimes your mind entangles the thoughts, and sometimes it just weaves a story for you. So, here is something which I just flourished with two closed eyes and one open heart.
A fine day in between an SMS conversation between him and her, he messages ‘… love you’ and she replies ‘Friendship Love ;-)’. He just giggles in his heart and since that day onwards some thoughts start whirling in his mind. He flips some pages of dictionary and online sites to read more about "Love".
Most of the dictionaries defines love as "A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness" or "Love is any of a number of emotions and experiences related to a sense of strong affection and attachment" or "Love is patient and kind; love is not jealous or boastful; it is not arrogant or rude. Love does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrong, but rejoices in the right. Love bears all things; believes all things; hopes all things; endures all things." But no where he could find "Types of Love" or "Categories in Love" for he always believed love has no boundaries, no categories, no types. You love someone because you love her! That’s it.
Now he digs deep into philosophy, pondering over feelings and emotions, and thought how in this world the evil always wins over the good. Everything in this planet has a different story to tell when it comes to good or bad. An ironical fact is all the good things have categories wherein all the bad things know no boundaries. He shares some vivid examples making no sense but worth a thought.
The earth is a beautiful place, and people have drawn boundaries to make countries, so, this lovely planet is being divided. Humanity itself is the biggest religion, but people divided into Christian, Hindu, Muslim, Sikhs etc. It’s so good to know others, but they are divided into the boundaries cultures and traditions. Now, if the negative sides are considered – Enemies or Terrorists: Are they divided? No! Are they confined to different types? No. Can someone define terrorists, can someone define criminals, can someone define an enemy on the same practices as defining peace, human and affection? Take the opposite of Love, the Hate. How many types of hatred are there? If someone says I hate you, can you say "Friendly Hate"? No! because, the harsh & negative feelings have no genres. You hate someone limitless, but you love someone in limits. Anger knows no limits, but peace confined to a very small region. For an enemy the whole world is theirs, but for a noble person there are rules. Why only the good feelings need to be confined while the bad feelings can be expressed without the rules and marks? Why?
He wants to tell her "I love you" and the moment someone starts feeling love beyond the social boundaries, then only he/she can understand it. Love is incomparable and he just can’t say his love is more or less than family, relatives, brother, sister but can look into her eyes and proudly say -embrace
* If a tear drops from your eye, I can feel the pain
* If a moment makes you upset, I wish to make you smile
* If anything troubles you, that troubles me too
* If your day does not go well, how can you expect my day be good
* If you sleep well, then only I can relax
* If you are happy, then I am happy
* If you are unwell, I am all to take care of you
* If your day is empty, I may fill it with fun and respect
* If you think you are a grown up, I will make you enjoy like a kid again
* If you think you are a kid, I will hold your hand and say, I am there to take care. You enjoy!
* If you feel worried, I close my eyes and wish all her worries be mine and she should just be fine
* If you enjoy with your friends, I feel good that you are happy and sound in your circle
* If you can’t enjoy the circus, I can be your joker.
If you take a rose from a garden and lock it in your room, you may seal it’s beauty but if you really want to appreciate it, let it be in a garden and see it bloom. His rose is her! He wants her to do all what she wishes, and he will just watch her grow, watch her smile, watch her laugh! Love to him is a feeling, and if she want him to categorize it into Friendship, Family, Relatives, or Brother/Sister, Boy Friend, Guide, Mentor, Human it would be very hard for him to express! He trusts her, he loves her, he understands her and he relies on her. He does not think that if its a friendly matter then only she is there with him, even if its family still he shares with her, if its personal still she is the one!
Years back, he rose above the feelings of sadness and now, he is always happy not because nothing goes bad with him, but because of the belief that he has her, people who care for him and love him for what he is, whom he is, which is priceless! He will not cry for the ones that don’t deserve his tears, and the ones who deserve will not make him cry! He made this promise to himself, no matter what he will not break, will not cry, will always be smiling for he has no regrets of what he lost but have respect and love for what he has. He has merged his power to deal with profession & as well as his personal life! He has been a phoenix & have taken a rebirth being stronger, more confident, and more mature to deal with this wicked complex world.
He is so happy, that he crossed this stage of life before kneeling down to life!
But he still can’t limit and categorize love, and will try to feel as it comes! Love isn’t a decision. It’s a feeling. If someone could decide who and how to love, it would be much simpler, but much less magical. Just feel the magic, for angels never introduce themselves, they just perform, and the spectator be smiling ever after …
He conveys his love and smile with a note – "Take care of my world, take care of yourself."